Erin's GA BLOG
Arrival: A Vast Nothingness
On Friday, we arrived in Denver after an uneventful
flight. We discovered later that smooth travel was a blessing not
experienced by many of our fellow travelers, who began their journey
with flight delays, severe weather, interstate shutdowns and the like.
Our plane was jampacked with Presbyterians. That didn’t make us any
less likely to grumble at the new "service" being offered by the airline:
$10 lunches promoted as "gourmet" but actually airline food in disguise.
It did mean the passenger compassion quotient for the flight attendants
forced to hawk the scam, ummm, meal was higher than you would expect, and
the deplaning process had the hospitable feel of filing from the pew to
join the communion line. If you have to wrestle your bag from the overhead
compartment and keep the line behind you waiting, it’s good when the ones
behind you are Presbyterians.
As we were descending into Denver it looked like we were coming down
into the tundra outback. The Presbyterian at the end of our row ogled the
great flat plain bounded by the mountains way off in the distance and said
with hushed awe, "We are descending into a Vast Nothingness."
Whenever I arrive at GA, one of the first things I do is scope out the
physical characteristics of the convention center. I believe you can
predict the direction of the Assembly by the layout of the building. Last
year, Columbus was chopped up into bizarre territories of different
colored carpet. This had theological portent.
Now, Denver. To get what is shaping up, you need to see this in your
mind’s eye: The outside of Convention Center looks like some kid took a
giant building set made of white PVC piping and constructed a tinkertoy
facade. It’s clunky and boxy, and rather like the entrance to It’s a Small
World (the Disneyland, not Walt Disney World one.)
On the outside, the Convention Center is surrounded by 3 colliding
architectures. There are the sleek hotels and office buildings, reflecting
money (or what remains of it) like blue sky off their angled windows. They
betray no evidence of stock market crashes or local drought. Back at
ground level, structures decay and a cotillion of panhandlers for every
glitzy building prick the conscience of Presbyterians. The "Welcome to
Denver" packet has an entire page devoted to the reasons not to give money
to panhandlers and ways to offer Real Help instead. If you can’t offer
money, what can you offer instead? Presbyterians on the go, including me,
don’t seem to have figured that one out.
Corporate luxury, corporeal poverty: the third architecture is that of
the street. The 16th Street mall is a funky blend of "Real
Colorado" tourist traps, the Virgin megastore with a very slim likelihood
of real virgins inside, restaurants, cafes, a drugstore to buy bandaids
for the blisters on your feet. It’s all linked by the free "mallride"
busses, which whisk folks of every shape, color and agenda up and down the
street as if distance did not matter. It’s held together by the rhythm of
the street. There’s a panhandler type with garbage can calypso drums
banging out the beat we Presbyterians so often miss. I slip him a couple
of bucks in reckless defiance of prohibitions. There’s a street art fair
on, with amazing art cubicled in tiny white booths. Not many Presbyterians
appear to actually have the time in our busy agendas to stop and peruse,
but the Holy Spirit is right there, pinned in pastel and unlikely bronze.
As I note in my first reflection every year, not one of the corporate
highrollers or the societal bottomfeeders on the street actually gives a
rip that Presbyterians are here to tackle Important Issues once again.
Even with our officious nametags on, we’re invisible. Well, not to the
merchants. All the businesses in the know display purple signs that say
"Welcome to Denver: 215th General Assembly." This makes me feel
really special until I note one business with 4 of those signs stacked on
top of each other. We’re here with mayors and Jehovah’s Witnesses and
accountants, and Not
That Special after all.
Heading inside the boxy structure which doesn’t match anything, the
doors are tended by the most cheerful greeters I’ve ever seen, at GA or in
church. They spring to open the door. They say "We’re so glad you’re
here." They really mean it. They’ve got on sashes which look like my
daughter’s brownie sash, except they’re purple. You can’t see the earned badges,
but in the right light they shine like the sun: hospitality, greeting,
warmth, welcome, gladness. They open the door for me, even though I’m
perfectly capable of opening it for myself. I enter in welcome.
Inside. Oh, inside. A Vast Nothingness. The meeting rooms are laid out
in concourses like an airport. No signs direct lost wanderers anyplace.
Mostly the walls are bare. The carpet matches, but I can’t remember what
it looks like. When I'm supposed to be Inside at the election of the
moderator, I instead end up in a little band of lost souls wandering the
convention wasteland. We’d gone the only direction we knew, only to
discover the escalator was shut down and the door we knew barred. We tried
one hallway, then another. No signs. No life. Lost on the outside.
"There’s a parable to this effect," someone said. "It doesn’t turn out
well," said another.
We retraced our steps all the way back to the beginning and finally
found it: the Vast Somethingness of the Presbyterian-packed room, all
weighing the moderatorial merits of the 3 candidates and generally
behaving as if they believed the Holy Spirit were brooding over the room.
Ever so faint, you could hear a beat.
The theme for this year’s General Assembly is "A House of Prayer for
All Peoples." My prayer as we begin to build this year’s structure is that
the house we build will be filled with Spirit, with a drumbeat loud enough
to be heard in the empty hallways and gracious enough to spill out into
the street. It's bound to be clunky, but
it's the only Something we’ve got, the only reason to bother to show up,
and the only answer to the Nothingness all around. I just hope we have
enough tinkertoys to pull it off.